More on Trust Issues

I have been having so much fun messing around with Duo Yoga with my husband.  We have only just begun – and it would be a lot easier on my base if I would just have faith and relax.  We’ve still got to get smooth on a basic fly, but why not shoot for the stars and trying something else to dream about?

I share this knowing that we will be doing this pose again and pretty sure it will be a lot smoother.  This is one of the reasons I love my yoga photography.  Seeing what’s going on from the sidelines offers much to learn.  Stills are great – but can impart a false sense that I know what I am doing. I think that this proves otherwise.

One thing is clear – I gotta learn to trust in my base.  He is a whole lot steadier than I, in so many ways.  I hope I don’t crush his skull .

Teaching Yin at Vivify today at 4 pm!

I am so stoked. Today WordPress is letting me insert pictures.  I’ve been having issues with photos in general on my laptop, so a Trip to the Apple Store is in my future.

Anyhoo, I have been filling my life with as much yoga as I can whilst looking for a job.  I need to ramp up my desire secure a new job . It’s just so fun to attend to errands and projects that have been back burner-ed for a long while.  But it is also nice to eat and have a roof over your head.  So I need to get serious.




Trust Issues

My husband and I have started to mess around with duo yoga. I think we will pull off some cool stuff.  I am really happy.  I am also a total chicken, so this will encourage me to get over it!  I would post a more recent shot – but WordPress is not letting me post my recent downloads.  Grrrrr!


There are a lot of things I’d like to discourse.  I continue to procrastinate Churching Up my blog. I want to make it so much more, but I’m getting distracted with home nesting and spring cleaning right now I guess.  And my left eye still “wears out” during the day.  Naps are time consuming 🙂 Oh, and I’m getting to do a whole lot more asana.  Perhaps I should start balancing out my 8-limbed path.  🙂

Anyways.  my belated post…… Go Ladies!!!


Potential end of Writer’s Block?

I *really* want to rearrange my blog.  I want to share my yoga pictures but i also want to provide a format for general info about yoga.  And Basenjis.  And New Mexico.  But I find that overwhelming, so I tend to just share pictures about what I’m up to and thinking about. Admittedly rather superficial!  Hopefully now that I can look at computer screens for more than a few minutes I will start to chip away and “church it up”, so to speak.

Five weeks of eye b.s. has pretty much up-ended my life.  It was simply terrifying to consider permanent loss of my vision.  It was really head-trippy to witness what I could see, it was like being on a hallucinogen without it wearing off…. It was very relieving when my vision started to improve….  But finding myself suddenly unemployed has definitely stung.  I understand, I really do, but holy heck it stings.  They couldn’t wait for me to come back to work when I had no idea when/whether  I could do so.  I’m relieved  that a few days ago I retrieved my state license, my belongings, turned in my key, and hugged many of my beloved co-workers.  Chapter officially closed.  Time to move on.  Glad I didn’t cry because Harlan accompanied me and he is my anchor..  After saying my good-byes we went and saw The Black Panther (big time recommendation). Great diversion.  The characters were all so bad-ass.

My vision is still fucked up in my left eye, but each day brings some improvement,.  It’s frustrating that my gains now are not nearly as marked as previous weeks.  Scares me but the eye doc assured me that it was going to be a long recuperation which might not be fully complete.  Thankfully I have been given the go-ahead to drive, work, and do my headstands.  Life is good.!

In retrospect, the Santa Fe job wasn’t the best fit anyways.  i really enjoyed my co-workers but the commute was simply an emotional drain.  No time for self-care at the end or the beginning of the day for the entire work week.  I love caring for others but we do need to find time for self-care.  I didn’t have the time to hydrate, eat, nor even go to the bathroom during my shifts.  That rather sucked. I’ not super surprised I had 2 UTIs and optic neuritis during my SF stint  The Gods Spoke that it wasn’t gonna happen and I’ve no choice but to move on

Ideally my new job will welcome my belief of appropriate yoga exercises coupled with therapeutic exercises personally designed for a given patient’s functional goals and always within their specific plan of care.  I don’t personally believe in modalities and I know I’m not alone.  I also yearn for a situation where I could continue to teach yoga with clients interested in doing so post PT discharge, with knowledge of any limitations they may still have.   I couldn’t do that in SF, since i don’t teach there.  But in RR/ABQ I could certainly offer such services.

In the interim, I know I need to take advantage of the extra time I have to get on my yoga mat.  I’ve definitely done more, but I really want to make it a daily event while I can.  I am sub teaching his morning, which is always my best motivation to go.  🙂

So here are a few pictures of Harlan and I dabbling in some Partner Yoga. super glad that we’ve started to practice together.  I’ll mull how to church the site up, but I first need to focus on getting my day underway and to walk my minions before I’m off to teach! And a few pictures of my Basenji Pile.




On The Road Again

I am elated to say that I have been cleared by the optometrist to resume driving and inverting in yoga.  I’m almost equally glad about the two!  It was a super pain in ass and annoying to not drive since I live in the sticks.  And I couldn’t participate in a huge portion of poses when teaching and taking class.

So I am back on the road.  I found that it actually tired me out to do some errands after a kick ass yoga class.  I believe it it because it was definitely the most active day I’ve had in a month.  I ended up taking a super long nap in the afternoon. Or maybe it’s just getting old!

Some pix from the lovely Vivify studio.. It was a super challenging and fun class, but I realized that I have lost a LOT of strength in the past month of having to take it super easy…..So I have my work cut out for myself. The good things is that while I start to do my work search, I will have some time to get on my mat, hopefully on a daily basis!


It was CRAZY to see my depth perception tests from one month ago and two days ago.  Black means you can’t detect anything in that field.  Doc was really encouraged that my vision had improved as much as it had in a month.  Optic neuritis typically takes a long time to resolve, and the extent to which it does can be limited.  My fast recovery is a good indicator that I won’t have much permanent damage. My left eye vision is still pretty blurry.  Electronics screens are really difficult to read.  So I certainly hope for more

I miss inversions

I miss driving too.

Follow-up with my optometrist on Tuesday. Eager.  But what if he doesn’t think that my vision has improved enough to drive? I know it is getting better but also know that I read for shit with my left eye alone.  My overall left field of vision remains in general dimmer than the right, but I can make out a lot of details and peripheral vision is back online

A month of not driving has been hard. A month of fretting about my vision overall has been stressful.  One of my best stress relievers is my yoga mat, but I am really limitied in the poses that I can do without risk of increasing my ocular pressure which can interfere with the healing in optic neuritis.

I know I still have a charmed life. I have no idea the suffering others endure. And someday, no matter what, I won’t be driving.  But right now, having a bit of a pity party, even though I know I shouldn’t.  The heart does what it wants, right?  Despite what hte brain tells it.

Namaste and Blessings, T.


It’s raining in Rio Rancho. Thank you Universe!

OMG we are getting precipitation here in the High Desert. It will make for a very messy walk with the Basenjis this morning, but boy do we need precipitation.  Yes!!!!

I had the unexpected surprise of sub teaching a couple of yoga classes this week. Hooray!!!!

It totally sucks that I lost my PTA job and income recently due to forces beyond my control.  But a definite sliver of the silver lining is I’m getting on my mat a whole lot more than I was while working in Santa Fe. I’m going to grab every chance I get to teach or take class while I figure out what I’m going to do with my life now.

I am incredibly grateful to be getting back on my mat.  My practice has always help me withstand the rollercoaster of life.

I feel like a broken record talking about this.  I’ll try and keep it short. I’ll try to figure out a way to stop even telling the tale.  I have faith that soon it will fall into the category of blip on the life map of bullshit.  I continue to recognize how good my life is.  Charmed really.


My life was pretty much up-ended last month when my left eye’s vision unexpectedly tanked within a 3 day span.  I honestly feared I was going blind with no warning.  Terrifying and truly life altering.  MRIs/Emergency Room/3 eye doc visits later….. all data consistent with optic neuritis of viral or idiopathic nature.  Not multiple sclerosis, which I now know to be a common cause of this condition. So I’m exceedingly grateful it isn’t MS.

I’m elated that my vision has improved quite a bit after that first wretched week.  My left eye vision still sucks – like I can’t read what I’m typing at all with my left eye.  There really isn’t a treatment for this illness, it is a lengthy “wait and see” what amount of vision that I will regain.   I must accept I will likely suffer some permanent vision loss so that still is scary. I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t have doctor blessing to drive. I feel so fucking dependent to go places.  My husband has been a rock-star in terms of taking me places as well as keeping my spirits up.

I grudgingly thank the Universe for forcing me out of a toxic work situation in Santa Fe.  It is a fine clinic, and I sure wanted to remain there for a few years.  I knew I couldn’t sustain it for 10 years, but I sure wanted to work there for a few years. But The Universe recognized that it was still a toxic situation for me – mainly the f-ing rough daily commute.  The Force decided for me that it was simply no longer an option. It’s been a really good change for my home-life to be sure.  Tip of the Positive Iceberg Hit.  I still feel horrid that I had to stop working with no warning at all. I know my co-workers really had to scramble since I couldn’t be there.  I’m glad that they found someone to replace me and therefore to know I should let go of the guilt.  I’m still processing this all honestly.  Harlan and I are journeying up to SF later today to turn in my keys and grab things I’ve brought to the clinic.  Glad he will be there to buffer my emotions whilst being there.

It is time to stop discussing my vision loss scare.  I will scream to cyberspace glee when I’m allowed to drive and when I find a cool PTA job.  But no more re-telling/re-visitng my sob story.  Things are going to work out.

We’re finding time to do a lot of stuff around the house since I’m rather homebound. Another silver lining.  New office furniture and 2 bookshelves for my little yoga studio now tucked in a closet.  I am stowing things nearby but out of sight so I can practice in a serene space. I am a double Virgo and messiness really drives me crazy.

I also think that my relationships have truly improved now that I have more time and energy to give.  So that is pretty cool.

It totally stinks to not have a decent income!  I sure hope that I will quickly score a great outpatient orthopedic position that is geographically far more desirable.  I would LOVE to be able to incorporate a whole lot more of yoga instruction into how I treat patients and students.   Focusing on the proper dynamics of a given PT  exercise such as straight leg raises has been incredibly instructional and I’m glad I have been imparted with that knowledge.  Now I yearn for a situation where I can blend such an exercise into a functional activity based on the needs of a particular client.  1:1 instruction is awesome.  But I would prefer to focus on Therapeutic Exercise with a whole lot less emphasis on singular exercises and the use of modalities such as ultrasound.  It is undeniably debatable whether modalities are beneficial in Physical Therapy.  I truly believe in my heart I’m meant to treat patients with yoga versus electricity.  Just saying.

Again changing the subject.  Here are some pictures taken yesterday at Vivify. I thought yoga pants with full of roses would be perfect for a Valentine’s Day Yoga class.  The anatomical interpretation of our lower extremities is more than debatable, but I still love these pants.

I haven’t been inspired to do much photography during my illness. Until this week I was supposed to keep activity to a minimum. But now I’m cleared to get sweaty and work my body.  Hooray!  I am sure I’ll be getting back to pictures as well.

Hasta la vista baby, it is time for me to ROCK and ROLL for the day.  Dropping off my keys and saying goodbye to people at TS is going to be difficult! But that will close a chapter and who know what now lies ahead!!!