I miss summer. I miss not being a student at Pima. I mostly miss Seattle. Dying to see my kiddos, my friends.
Yesterday I found out that I have to attend Friday classes at PMI for Semester II. This pretty much kills any chances to do brief weekends to Seattle. This is upsetting. I was told that the PTA program would be Monday-Thursday. But no, they’ve decided to split the Thursday afternoon class into the lucky people that get Thursdays, and a second group that gets completely screwed by having to part of the class on Friday mornings. Guess who got stuck in the bullshit group? This means that for the semester I will have to come to class on Thursday for a stupid hour, come back Friday from 9-12. I am really pissed. It takes me 45 minutes to get to school. So Thursdays will be extremely frustrating and now my Friday schedule is totally destroyed, as any plans to go to Seattle. It makes no sense whatsoever to go to Seattle Friday afternoons and return on Sundays. Many tears since finding this out. In fact, the tears well as I write about it. I have becomes such a crier since moving to NM. 🙁
But I gotta stop dwelling on being upset about Semester II. I have to pass Semester I classes today and tomorrow. Not emotionally prepared whatsover…. I’ve got my Intro to PTA and lab practical for Anatomy/Physiology to contend with. The former- he writes super picky questions – and usually on stuff that I don’t find particularly relevant. Then a lab practical, the week after holiday so I haven’t spent time with the models recently. I expect that I will perform marginally, and that is upsetting. I am used to rocking my exams. Still so pissed we didn’t get finals out of the way before holiday. PIMA destroyed my holidays with that schedule. I tried to study, but honestly, my heart wasn’t in it. Just thinking about how things are unfolding, I start to cry. I am starting to question my path. But I will revisit that after finals I guess….
I’m just gonna have to rely on remaining calm and tapping into my cranium today. The information is there, somewhere.
I’ll end on a positive note. ‘m pretty sure I will get A’s in Medical Terminology, Communications, Medical Ethics, and Math/Physics. That of course pleases me…..but the truly important classes… Pray for me today please… I can live with B’s….. but I have to admit I’ll be disgusted with myself. 🙁