First of all, best wishes for All in this New Year. I wonder how long it will take me to start signing dates as 2017 and not 2016. I bet it will be about a month or so based on previous years (yep, extremely forgetful).
Why do I have this mental defect? Perhaps this mental block screams that I live in the past WAY too much. I don’t deny it. I don’t WANT to. Cuz there is so much I regret it really hurts. Perhaps it just freaks me out to realize how old I am getting……
I fervently try to embrace my New Now and Let Go of the past. I truly know that it simply can’t be changed. It’s pointless to ruminate on the things that could have been, or the mistakes made in retrospect that were simply stupid. But professionals state that at the time, my actions were the best I thought I could do.
So getting back to embracing the New Now .. It’s so cool when I pull it off. But it is a hard state to stay in, no matter how real it is. If it was easy, there would be a shitload of Buddhas! I’m so glad that I have my Erich Schiffmann recordings to remind me of New Now. Freedom Style Yoga. He centers me, how I wish I could study with him!
I fret about leaving Rio Rancho for 7 weeks in mid Feb. I can’t WAIT to be back in Seattle for 7 weeks, but I wish I could teleport my family and Rio Rancho friends and yoga classes there with me as well :).
The externship will keep me plenty busy. Homesickness might not happen there, like in Gallup. My Bestie! My friends! Lake Washington! It is so green there, the pine tress are so lovely. Sushi.
Plus I can’t wait to practice at my dear Ashram. Taken from said studio.
Woke up around 2:45 a.m. I guess since I went to be at 8 am on New Year’s Eve, that is a decent night’s sleep….. My blessed right shoulder pain was intense enough that I knew trying to sleep would be utterly pointless. Orthopedist appt in a few days. Thank Heavens, I really need to figure out what’s going on with my shoulder and rehabilitate!!!
Well enough rambling now, I have to shut my eyes and focus on Ronnie, talk to Russia by Prince. I thought Ronnie was bad, but is sickening that Donald Trump is on the way into the Oval Office. Bu trying
Namaste All. Blessings!!!