I never in a billion years thought that I would end up living in the High Desert in NM. That just wasn’t on my radar. I *almost*/maybe possibly could have lived in AZ part time in at one point in my life part. Man, I still regret that didn’t happen. that was the end of a beautiful chapter of my life, one that I never wanted to end. Karma probably intervened. If we indeed experience sequential lives, with life loops of similar theme, until we learn differently and get to move on….. Well, I think one of mine might be PollyAnna. Maybe I should meditate on this 🙂
I’m clearly feeling philosophical (definitely relates to turning the big 5-0 in just a few weeks. That is surreal. I don’t feel 50. I can’t help but reflect back on the chapters of my life. So many regrets along the way. Past loves. Past plans that didn’t materialize that sure would have been awesome. I sure didn’t foresee some of the chapters!
I’ll say the book of my life is net good, but boy how I still yearn to re-write some of my chapters. I can’t elaborate further. Suffice to say I have had a myriad of experiences that could make for an interesting read. Some situations are simply way way way too private. Too sad for me to write about. I reckon a lot of people feel that way.
20/20 Hindsight. A strong desire to make better choices. To remember that where you go, there you are.
Anyways. Enough being wistful. I do feel better saying THAT much to cyberspace.
Yesterday Lucien lured me out into the yard next to our solar panels. The sand felt awesome on my feet and the majesty of the Sandias warmed my soul. It took some time to fall in love with the desert. I was very homesick for the PacNW. Returning to NM made me realize that this IS my home now, and I think it is a beautiful place with the most amazing folks. So although being here was never on my bucket list, I am at peace with where the wind has blown me.
Feeling very hopeful for a PTA opportunity to manifest very shortly. It will be so awesome to get back to what I’ve trained for 20 months. I am so glad to be out of school, but I long to get back to clinic before I get rusty. Can’t wait for this chapter to begin.
Namaste All. Be sure to honor your body and do a few stretches. Adopt an unusual position, sink into it and let that creativity permeate all aspects of *your * book. I’m convinced of the importance of constancy when it comes to stretching the body’s tissues effectively. I promise you that I will too 🙂