I’m in love with my car

(To quote Queen)

 

 

I’ve always formed a special relationship with my cars.  Except the Tercel, I was stupid enough to buy a car with no A/C.  But every other car I’ve had was pretty awesome.  I’m currently driving a VW GTI. Her name’s Silver Sparkles (or Sparks for short).

I have been remiss in writing in my blog of late.  Mostly it is just that I am really busy.  Writer’s Block is to blame as well.  It’s cathartic to send thoughts into cyberspace. But I wish my blog was much substantive. I’ve resolved to quit WordPress if I don’t get back to using it . It’s money down the sink.

My physical yoga practice is suffering a lot currently.  I teach 3 classes now, which I love dearly.  But I took a class a few days ago and couldn’t recall when I had personally taken a class.  It was a great class.  I know I need to take a class on the regular.  One’s yoga teaching becomes stale if one has no personal practice.  So I’ve got to figure this out. I feel so much better emotionally and physically.

My teaching style is baffling me these days. Becoming a PTA, becoming intrigued with Fascia and Yin Yoga. Listening to J.Brown Yoga talks as well (this Podcast is the best). But I’ve realized there are so many things I’ve said and done in my classes over the years.  I wish I could go back in time and edit them!

So I’m in a weird transition of sorts as I sort out all the new information I’ve been taking in.  I love working in an Outpatient Orthopedic PT clinic. I have worked with some really cool people and to watch their transformation as they recover.  It’s awesome.  It is as rewarding as witnessing my students transform.  I have so much to learn about Physical Therapy and my 8-limbed tree.  How to un-baffle? How to become great at both my careers?IMG_8832

Can’t wait to teach my 9:30/12:30 classes today.  On that note, it has been fun to send off a missive.

Duo Yoga. So much fun!

I have been so f-ing busy that I haven’t blogged in a long time.

Things are in general going quite well, but a new job, however cool it may be, is still time consuming and ego-breaking.  I hate having to ask a bazillion questions. The documentation software that ATI uses is actually quite robust, but it is really hard for this somewhat old dog to learn new tricks.  But I will succeed!

Speaking of learning anew, Harlan and I can now resume our delving into duo yoga. We had to go on hiatus for a few months since he broke a rib.  WE WERE NOT PRACTICING DUO WHEN HE FRACTURED HIS RIB, JUST AN UNFORTUNATE FALL 🙁  

So watch out world!  This stuff is way too fun.  Trust is required 🙂

So Happy Monday All. Love and Light into Cyberspace .

🙂

-T

Baby Steps

Harlan and I are learning to better fly into basic duo partner postures and it is so fun!  I find myself checking out IG for ideas and goals. Will definitely be practicing before and/or after Lisa’s class today at vivifynm.com.

These are from our driveway. I usually shoot in front of our amazing view of the Sandia Mountain Range, but there is enough of an incline and it was breezy that day.  So my base wasn’t into that idea.  Kinda have to roll with what the base says when playing duo yoga.  🙂

learning to fly driveway

Totally struggling these days with attending to home management issues.  Need a plumber, need a handyman (we are not handy), never-ending dog duties (our Basenjis are amazingly spoiled.)

Our Minions are totally worth complying with their numerous expectations . However, walking them can be a total drag. Walking 3 Basenjis in jackrabbit country currently in windy season is not a cake walk.  The winds kick up sand and blow the tumbleweeds and grasses.  My sight hounds become quite naughty.  Pulling hard, extra tangles in their 3 leashes.  Argh!  Romeo, my very special doggie, has been his usual fun dog to walk with.  Lucien was just terrible yesterday.  It is good that he is so cute and I must remember that he is still very much a puppy in his brain.

I so wish I could spend more time on this blog.  To make it more informative/interesting first and foremost, and not just limited to my yoga photography. I am an ardent yogini, but I am also a fledgling Physical Therapist Assistant.

I am self-diagnosing myself with Blogging Block. I hope that it ends soon!

Namaste, Have a great Tuesday.

-T

 

More on Trust Issues

I have been having so much fun messing around with Duo Yoga with my husband.  We have only just begun – and it would be a lot easier on my base if I would just have faith and relax.  We’ve still got to get smooth on a basic fly, but why not shoot for the stars and trying something else to dream about?

I share this knowing that we will be doing this pose again and pretty sure it will be a lot smoother.  This is one of the reasons I love my yoga photography.  Seeing what’s going on from the sidelines offers much to learn.  Stills are great – but can impart a false sense that I know what I am doing. I think that this proves otherwise.

One thing is clear – I gotta learn to trust in my base.  He is a whole lot steadier than I, in so many ways.  I hope I don’t crush his skull .

Teaching Yin at Vivify today at 4 pm!

I am so stoked. Today WordPress is letting me insert pictures.  I’ve been having issues with photos in general on my laptop, so a Trip to the Apple Store is in my future.

Anyhoo, I have been filling my life with as much yoga as I can whilst looking for a job.  I need to ramp up my desire secure a new job . It’s just so fun to attend to errands and projects that have been back burner-ed for a long while.  But it is also nice to eat and have a roof over your head.  So I need to get serious.

 

 

 

Trust Issues

My husband and I have started to mess around with duo yoga. I think we will pull off some cool stuff.  I am really happy.  I am also a total chicken, so this will encourage me to get over it!  I would post a more recent shot – but WordPress is not letting me post my recent downloads.  Grrrrr!

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There are a lot of things I’d like to discourse.  I continue to procrastinate Churching Up my blog. I want to make it so much more, but I’m getting distracted with home nesting and spring cleaning right now I guess.  And my left eye still “wears out” during the day.  Naps are time consuming 🙂 Oh, and I’m getting to do a whole lot more asana.  Perhaps I should start balancing out my 8-limbed path.  🙂

Anyways.  my belated post…… Go Ladies!!!

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Potential end of Writer’s Block?

I *really* want to rearrange my blog.  I want to share my yoga pictures but i also want to provide a format for general info about yoga.  And Basenjis.  And New Mexico.  But I find that overwhelming, so I tend to just share pictures about what I’m up to and thinking about. Admittedly rather superficial!  Hopefully now that I can look at computer screens for more than a few minutes I will start to chip away and “church it up”, so to speak.

Five weeks of eye b.s. has pretty much up-ended my life.  It was simply terrifying to consider permanent loss of my vision.  It was really head-trippy to witness what I could see, it was like being on a hallucinogen without it wearing off…. It was very relieving when my vision started to improve….  But finding myself suddenly unemployed has definitely stung.  I understand, I really do, but holy heck it stings.  They couldn’t wait for me to come back to work when I had no idea when/whether  I could do so.  I’m relieved  that a few days ago I retrieved my state license, my belongings, turned in my key, and hugged many of my beloved co-workers.  Chapter officially closed.  Time to move on.  Glad I didn’t cry because Harlan accompanied me and he is my anchor..  After saying my good-byes we went and saw The Black Panther (big time recommendation). Great diversion.  The characters were all so bad-ass.

My vision is still fucked up in my left eye, but each day brings some improvement,.  It’s frustrating that my gains now are not nearly as marked as previous weeks.  Scares me but the eye doc assured me that it was going to be a long recuperation which might not be fully complete.  Thankfully I have been given the go-ahead to drive, work, and do my headstands.  Life is good.!

In retrospect, the Santa Fe job wasn’t the best fit anyways.  i really enjoyed my co-workers but the commute was simply an emotional drain.  No time for self-care at the end or the beginning of the day for the entire work week.  I love caring for others but we do need to find time for self-care.  I didn’t have the time to hydrate, eat, nor even go to the bathroom during my shifts.  That rather sucked. I’ not super surprised I had 2 UTIs and optic neuritis during my SF stint  The Gods Spoke that it wasn’t gonna happen and I’ve no choice but to move on

Ideally my new job will welcome my belief of appropriate yoga exercises coupled with therapeutic exercises personally designed for a given patient’s functional goals and always within their specific plan of care.  I don’t personally believe in modalities and I know I’m not alone.  I also yearn for a situation where I could continue to teach yoga with clients interested in doing so post PT discharge, with knowledge of any limitations they may still have.   I couldn’t do that in SF, since i don’t teach there.  But in RR/ABQ I could certainly offer such services.

In the interim, I know I need to take advantage of the extra time I have to get on my yoga mat.  I’ve definitely done more, but I really want to make it a daily event while I can.  I am sub teaching his morning, which is always my best motivation to go.  🙂

So here are a few pictures of Harlan and I dabbling in some Partner Yoga. super glad that we’ve started to practice together.  I’ll mull how to church the site up, but I first need to focus on getting my day underway and to walk my minions before I’m off to teach! And a few pictures of my Basenji Pile.

 

 

 

It’s raining in Rio Rancho. Thank you Universe!

OMG we are getting precipitation here in the High Desert. It will make for a very messy walk with the Basenjis this morning, but boy do we need precipitation.  Yes!!!!

I had the unexpected surprise of sub teaching a couple of yoga classes this week. Hooray!!!!

It totally sucks that I lost my PTA job and income recently due to forces beyond my control.  But a definite sliver of the silver lining is I’m getting on my mat a whole lot more than I was while working in Santa Fe. I’m going to grab every chance I get to teach or take class while I figure out what I’m going to do with my life now.

I am incredibly grateful to be getting back on my mat.  My practice has always help me withstand the rollercoaster of life.

I feel like a broken record talking about this.  I’ll try and keep it short. I’ll try to figure out a way to stop even telling the tale.  I have faith that soon it will fall into the category of blip on the life map of bullshit.  I continue to recognize how good my life is.  Charmed really.

Anyways,

My life was pretty much up-ended last month when my left eye’s vision unexpectedly tanked within a 3 day span.  I honestly feared I was going blind with no warning.  Terrifying and truly life altering.  MRIs/Emergency Room/3 eye doc visits later….. all data consistent with optic neuritis of viral or idiopathic nature.  Not multiple sclerosis, which I now know to be a common cause of this condition. So I’m exceedingly grateful it isn’t MS.

I’m elated that my vision has improved quite a bit after that first wretched week.  My left eye vision still sucks – like I can’t read what I’m typing at all with my left eye.  There really isn’t a treatment for this illness, it is a lengthy “wait and see” what amount of vision that I will regain.   I must accept I will likely suffer some permanent vision loss so that still is scary. I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t have doctor blessing to drive. I feel so fucking dependent to go places.  My husband has been a rock-star in terms of taking me places as well as keeping my spirits up.

I grudgingly thank the Universe for forcing me out of a toxic work situation in Santa Fe.  It is a fine clinic, and I sure wanted to remain there for a few years.  I knew I couldn’t sustain it for 10 years, but I sure wanted to work there for a few years. But The Universe recognized that it was still a toxic situation for me – mainly the f-ing rough daily commute.  The Force decided for me that it was simply no longer an option. It’s been a really good change for my home-life to be sure.  Tip of the Positive Iceberg Hit.  I still feel horrid that I had to stop working with no warning at all. I know my co-workers really had to scramble since I couldn’t be there.  I’m glad that they found someone to replace me and therefore to know I should let go of the guilt.  I’m still processing this all honestly.  Harlan and I are journeying up to SF later today to turn in my keys and grab things I’ve brought to the clinic.  Glad he will be there to buffer my emotions whilst being there.

It is time to stop discussing my vision loss scare.  I will scream to cyberspace glee when I’m allowed to drive and when I find a cool PTA job.  But no more re-telling/re-visitng my sob story.  Things are going to work out.

We’re finding time to do a lot of stuff around the house since I’m rather homebound. Another silver lining.  New office furniture and 2 bookshelves for my little yoga studio now tucked in a closet.  I am stowing things nearby but out of sight so I can practice in a serene space. I am a double Virgo and messiness really drives me crazy.

I also think that my relationships have truly improved now that I have more time and energy to give.  So that is pretty cool.

It totally stinks to not have a decent income!  I sure hope that I will quickly score a great outpatient orthopedic position that is geographically far more desirable.  I would LOVE to be able to incorporate a whole lot more of yoga instruction into how I treat patients and students.   Focusing on the proper dynamics of a given PT  exercise such as straight leg raises has been incredibly instructional and I’m glad I have been imparted with that knowledge.  Now I yearn for a situation where I can blend such an exercise into a functional activity based on the needs of a particular client.  1:1 instruction is awesome.  But I would prefer to focus on Therapeutic Exercise with a whole lot less emphasis on singular exercises and the use of modalities such as ultrasound.  It is undeniably debatable whether modalities are beneficial in Physical Therapy.  I truly believe in my heart I’m meant to treat patients with yoga versus electricity.  Just saying.

Again changing the subject.  Here are some pictures taken yesterday at Vivify. I thought yoga pants with full of roses would be perfect for a Valentine’s Day Yoga class.  The anatomical interpretation of our lower extremities is more than debatable, but I still love these pants.

I haven’t been inspired to do much photography during my illness. Until this week I was supposed to keep activity to a minimum. But now I’m cleared to get sweaty and work my body.  Hooray!  I am sure I’ll be getting back to pictures as well.

Hasta la vista baby, it is time for me to ROCK and ROLL for the day.  Dropping off my keys and saying goodbye to people at TS is going to be difficult! But that will close a chapter and who know what now lies ahead!!!

 

 

 

Yin Yoga

I’m teaching Yin at 4 pm today at Vivify and I’m trying to get mentally prepared. I have a lot of studying that I’d like to be doing regarding Yin Yoga.  The problem is, life is getting in my way.  I’ve been on a major cleaning purge, so shredding documents from 10 years ago seems necessary to tackle right now.

My shredder has over-heated so I thought I’d pen a thought or two and share a few pictures, of course.

I came across of these 4 Tenets of Yin in a Yoga Journal Article.  There are so many more, IMHO, and but I agree wholeheartedly with them.

  • Find an appropriate edge
  • Be still
  • Hold for awhile
  • release with care

I am trying to come up with a new flyer for my Yin classes.  And a new business card.  I have so many pictures to sort through, debating on bullet points I want to make regarding both.  It seems easier to just shred 10 year old documents. Which I want to get back to, I believe my machine has cooled sufficiently to finish said task.  Then I will turn my focus to changing into my yoga togs and contemplating what poses I’d like to possibly do. I never really know where the sequence will go.  My Yin is pretty much a Vibe-style Yin and I try to consider who is there, not be married to some sort of sequence.  So time to get going!

I have discovered the beauty of parallel bars at work. I look forward to playing with them again this coming week!

Namaste

Time Sure Flies.

Happy 2018 All.  I send the most warmest of wishes to cyberspace to my family, friends, other earthlings, and out to the Cosmos.  Wow!  2018….

I am inspired to get going on the Bucket List (and to clean my house) as time is clearly marching on at a rapid pace.

I have had such a lovely long weekend.  Filled with quality time with my family, friends, and some **much** needed time on my yoga mat.  I love my job as a Physical Therapist Assistant, but it bites into my Yoga Mode and all that that entails. I yearn to find a balance between my two worlds and be the best teacher/educator/clinician that I can be.  I know this is possible, it just takes time and a willingness to work hard for my dreams to manifest.  A cherry on the top of this dream sundae would be financially independence.

I plan to sit down and work on my 2018 Bucket List, and maybe to share it once I’ve given in some deep thought.  But I also want to attack my closet for awhile, because I know many treasures lie within its confines.  I’ve been threatening to do this for some time.  I’ve been in purge mode for a few days now and I don’t want to lose my momentum!

But I’ve got some pictures I just have to share from Vivify this weekend.  My husband and I have started practicing together, and I am ever so pleased!  Baby steps have been made in duo yoga and I have high hopes for what we will learn as we develop trust and have fun with it.  And I’ll have to stop being a chicken 🙂 🙂 🙂

Namaste

And maybe, just maybe, I’ll take on my fears of Blitz the Monster….. This could the the Year of Adrenaline and Adventure!!!