Potential end of Writer’s Block?

I *really* want to rearrange my blog.  I want to share my yoga pictures but i also want to provide a format for general info about yoga.  And Basenjis.  And New Mexico.  But I find that overwhelming, so I tend to just share pictures about what I’m up to and thinking about. Admittedly rather superficial!  Hopefully now that I can look at computer screens for more than a few minutes I will start to chip away and “church it up”, so to speak.

Five weeks of eye b.s. has pretty much up-ended my life.  It was simply terrifying to consider permanent loss of my vision.  It was really head-trippy to witness what I could see, it was like being on a hallucinogen without it wearing off…. It was very relieving when my vision started to improve….  But finding myself suddenly unemployed has definitely stung.  I understand, I really do, but holy heck it stings.  They couldn’t wait for me to come back to work when I had no idea when/whether  I could do so.  I’m relieved  that a few days ago I retrieved my state license, my belongings, turned in my key, and hugged many of my beloved co-workers.  Chapter officially closed.  Time to move on.  Glad I didn’t cry because Harlan accompanied me and he is my anchor..  After saying my good-byes we went and saw The Black Panther (big time recommendation). Great diversion.  The characters were all so bad-ass.

My vision is still fucked up in my left eye, but each day brings some improvement,.  It’s frustrating that my gains now are not nearly as marked as previous weeks.  Scares me but the eye doc assured me that it was going to be a long recuperation which might not be fully complete.  Thankfully I have been given the go-ahead to drive, work, and do my headstands.  Life is good.!

In retrospect, the Santa Fe job wasn’t the best fit anyways.  i really enjoyed my co-workers but the commute was simply an emotional drain.  No time for self-care at the end or the beginning of the day for the entire work week.  I love caring for others but we do need to find time for self-care.  I didn’t have the time to hydrate, eat, nor even go to the bathroom during my shifts.  That rather sucked. I’ not super surprised I had 2 UTIs and optic neuritis during my SF stint  The Gods Spoke that it wasn’t gonna happen and I’ve no choice but to move on

Ideally my new job will welcome my belief of appropriate yoga exercises coupled with therapeutic exercises personally designed for a given patient’s functional goals and always within their specific plan of care.  I don’t personally believe in modalities and I know I’m not alone.  I also yearn for a situation where I could continue to teach yoga with clients interested in doing so post PT discharge, with knowledge of any limitations they may still have.   I couldn’t do that in SF, since i don’t teach there.  But in RR/ABQ I could certainly offer such services.

In the interim, I know I need to take advantage of the extra time I have to get on my yoga mat.  I’ve definitely done more, but I really want to make it a daily event while I can.  I am sub teaching his morning, which is always my best motivation to go.  🙂

So here are a few pictures of Harlan and I dabbling in some Partner Yoga. super glad that we’ve started to practice together.  I’ll mull how to church the site up, but I first need to focus on getting my day underway and to walk my minions before I’m off to teach! And a few pictures of my Basenji Pile.

 

 

 

DOMS

Delayed onset muscle soreness. I’ve got a mild case of it, and I couldn’t be more pleased.  I have pushed myself physically over the weekend, after a week of being pushed mentally.  No complaints, but I need to find a blend each day of the two.

I really love my new job.  I have so much to learn, but I’m highly motivated to do just that!  I plan on studying up later today, and I teach Yin at 4 p.m. so looking for a pleasant and chill day.

I had a lovely time with some duo photos with Mya, who has been practicing now at Viv for only a few months. This girl puts my standing bow to shame! I love love love the yoga journey that she has embarked up, I honestly think her practice will become remarkable. More importantly, this woman has a heart of gold and she is smart as hell.  Grateful to have her in my life.

This is BullS*ht

You are not alone! I see this all the time!  🙂

It’s easy to think of ourselves as static. It’s hard to not compare oneself to others.  But we are always growing and changing.  Change takes time and patience.  We all have our unique talents.  

I am fortunate to be one of the Gumby’s. I have to admit a good stretch feels fantastic.  One of my goals as an instructor is to help motivate and encourage.  I’m working on inventing magic fairy dust that imparts flexibility, but I’m not there yet.  I am happy help in any way I currently can.  It is step by step, day by day.  With patience, the sky is the limit.

Happily Geeking Out

I have discovered, much to my pleasant surprise, that I actually LOVE reading about the Fascial network and how it intertwines with the better recognized musculoskeletal system  It’s all Tensegrity baby.

Huh? What’s that?  Super awesome question.  Right now I’m still gathering my information to adequately verbalize it at the level I get it.

I *am* a scientist, even if I have sort of turned my back on my title, I DO have a doctorate in the biological sciences.  I worked really f-ing hard to pull that off!  And now I’ve got an Associate’s Degree in Physical Therapy Assistance (NOT TO MENTION I AM ACTUALLY LICENSED TO PRACTICE THAT UNDER THE GUIDANCE OF A PHYSICAL THERAPIST!).  Still getting used to that last phrase and feeling confident that I’ve spent countless hours considering how the human body function properly (or not!)

But back to Tensegrity Baby.  I’ve always had an appreciation for the power of a good long stretch, even as a youngster. And I am blessed with a naturally (extremely) flexible body that has gotten more flexible over the years thanks to 17 years of spending thousands (not kidding) hours on my Manduka yoga mat coupled with years of yoga teaching.

This is an incredibly exciting time to be a yoga instructor/yoga geek.  With notable Western Institutions publishing evidence based research on the powers of Yoga, mindfulness, and healthy fascia….. Wow. Western philosophy simply has to connect with the East, even if the naysayers will that I’m suggesting satanic worship, which is simply not the case.

There is a part of me that even feels compelled to write a research grant (not quite there yet, lemme heal from being in school). While I waffle on the grant writing idea AT THIS POINT, the more time I research connective tissues, the more confident I become on touting the findings of others and what I’ve just personally experienced in my own body and what I see happening with my fellow yogis.  In an increasingly insane world, reliant on the easy fixes… I am increasingly empowered.

Soooo

I’ll be revisiting these issues.  I 100% believe that a huge part of the study of the human body has been tossed into the biohazard bin, with the assumption that it (fascia/connective tissues) is simply the bubble wrap on the musculoskeletal system. And of course, the Msk system is an enormous component of our locomotion system.  But let’s not be that reductionist- and consider that the huge amount of tissue that’s historically been thrown into the biotrash bin warrants a WHOLE lot more thought.

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Waking up

I slept like a ROCK last night, which is a pleasant surprise for me, I usually wake up several times during the night.  So I am most grateful – yet still having trouble waking up.  So I did a little personal practice and here are my favorite stills.  I’m going to attempt to add the video clips, but I’ll be at the mercy of youtube.

 

 

 

Back to Life, Live.

I’ve been emotionally slammed this past 7 weeks.  The Externship was a great learning experience, but overall…. so depressing.  This past week…. Felt like shit from a head cold. I had to give my in-service, I broadened my PTA experiences into Wound Care.  I’m not squeamish, but to hear people scream with dressing changes plus seeing decaying human flesh…. It was really hard to start that right away in the morning, take a full caseload of some complex cases while feeling nauseated….. I felt like a shell of myself as I walked out the doors for the last time.

I wanted to feel elated, but I didn’t get stellar ratings on every category i was being evaluated upon.  Almost entry level, but just a little shy.  I should focus on that I am deemed entry level for the majority of the categories.  But I gave it my all, and really felt under the circumstances that I deserved all Entry Level.  Whatever.  A fews of sleep has helped me process.

  1. I’m not meant to work in a SNF, retirement center (but I could totally see learning more about geriatric yoga, teaching a class gratis at a senior citizen’s center at some point.
  2. I need an environment that is far quieter if I am to flourish. I could hardly think sometimes, with all the chaos around me.
  3. I would prefer to never live in the Pac NW full-time again in this lifetime.  I can’t deal with the relentless gloom and drizzle. I need my NM Sun.

That being said, I sure have enjoyed being around friends, family, big pine trees, and Lake Washington.  Tonight, gonna hang with bestie Downtown Seattle, which I haven’t done in years. I’m sure it will be a blast.

Last trip to Juanita Beach

Urdva Dhanurasana/Wheel Pose

I love Love LOVE Wheel Pose.  Have since I was a kiddo.  It is Day 14 (tomorrow’s) pose for Vivify Hot Yoga NM’s #vivifylucky17 and I’m honored to be leading this advanced posture 🙂

It is **essential** to warm up the body for Wheel. It is an advanced posture. Bridge and shoulder openers are great preparatory poses.

I offer you here a few snippets here, instructions, and a few of the benefits of this amazing posture.

  1. Basic Push Up into Wheel
  2. Drop Back into Wheel should be with supervision or using the wall to practice the drop back.
  3. The Wall walk is a great way to really open the shoulders which makes the pose so much easier, you aren’t fighting gravity the more compact you can become
  4. Revel in where you are in your practice and just keep at it.  The benefits are many!

Benefits of Urdva Dharnurasana (Wheel Pose)

  • IMHO the Ultimate Heart Opener, benefitting the body, mind and spirit.
  • Stretches the rib cage and lungs, improving respiration
  • Strengthens/lengthens/improves flexibility of the spinal column, consequently improving nervous system function
  • Loosens tight hips and shoulders
  • Strengthens the arms, wrists, legs, buns, and abdomen
  • Stimulates the thyroid and pituitary, thereby counteracting life’s stresses
  • Increases energy and counteracts depression.
  • Therapeutic for asthma, back pain, infertility, and reducing osteoporosis.
  • Precautions/contra-indications include previous back injury, carpal tunnel syndrome, cardiovascular disease or high or low blood pressure

Getting into Wheel.

  1. Lie flat on your back with your arms at your sides.
  2. Bend your knees, keeping your feet parallel and aligned with your hips.
  3. Draw your heels close to the edges of your buttocks.
  4. Reach your arms up overhead, bending your elbows and placing palms on floor at either side of your head, fingers pointing toward the body.
  5. Carefully pressing up, straightening your elbows and lifting your hips.
  6. If possible, walk feet toward hands or vice versa.
  7. The more you can get your wrists under your shoulders, the easier this pose becomes, but understand this might take time!
  8. Continue to breathe and lift hips.
  9. When you are ready to release, tuck the pelvis and slowly lower down, tailbone last to touch.
  10. Supta baddha konasana (supine bound angle) is a lovely release from wheel.
  11. Keep at it! Try to hold 5 breaths. Then go for 10 breaths…. The benefits are plentiful and there are so many fun variations.

Rain Rain Rain

It rained all day yesterday and I was awakened this morning, one minute before my alarm, by the glorious pounding of rain on the roof. It makes me smile, seems so comforting. Plus, all the places that I need to go today are minutes from the lovely home I’m staying at.  No need to experience the insanity on I-405 on a day like today.

I certainly won’t be doing tree yoga today, but I had fun with it yesterday.  It took me about 20 tries to get my handstand, which was frustrating.  For whatever reason I was experiencing fear that I’d miss my target.  Plus the angle of the ground/roots involved extra effort on the kick and I was being a ninny.

Enjoying my coffee and getting ready for another 6 am class. I didn’t make it onto my mat yesterday and I regretted it.  Everything goes so much more smoothly and pleasantly when I do.

Blessings for a beautiful day .You be sure to stretch too! It doesn’t have to involve trees  🙂

Big Day!

Starting my internship today at Life Centers of Kirkland. I’ve really been looking forward to it – but of course the first day anywhere is full of uncertainties – as least in *my* experience.

To shake off the jitters, I’m going to start the day out right with a 6:15 a.m. class. I have promised myself to get in as much yoga as I can while in WA.  I have to make the internship the priority of course, but I should also be able to get back on my mat a whole lot more than I have lately. I don’t know this teacher, so I hope I like her, for the 6:15 a.m class is perfect for my schedule. I am literally minutes from the studio at bestie’s house.  I am truly blessed to be staying with her.

There is this silly little voice in my head telling me that in 7 weeks I’ll regain my former fear of public speaking and teaching will once again be stressful. I hope that isn’t the case of course.  I’m probably being silly, for I’ve gotten to a place where I’m quite comfortable in the role and teaching a wide variety of styles, multi-level. I must hold onto the idea that I will return to NM a better teacher, one who has rested her voice for a little bit. It is good to be the student, and let someone else do the thinking. It’s interesting to hear other teachers cues, and to steal their ideas that speak to me.  Lol. I’m a phrase thief!

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