I quit my job and while I’m glad….

I have worked in an assisted living and home healthcare service for the past two months. I have met some incredible people.  But I am not of the cloth that can be in such settings.  The poverty is downright depressing and sad.  I sure hope I never end up in a dementia ward!!!  The facilities are nice.  My co-workers were super.  I didn’t get to know them well because I was “out in the field”.  I wish them all the best.  But man, that work is rough.

I am meant to get back into my fascination of the myofascia.  Inspired by the thought of working in outpatient again. I want to learn a whole lot more about soft tissue massage/trigger points/sneaking in a little yoga bug into the clients when I can.

Life smiled upon me.  I will start in a month at such a clinic, starting in a month.  My  2 week notice offer  has been turned down, so for glorious month I am unemployed.  Kind of a swirl of my reality.  The big changes in the course of life contain major forks in the road.  I have a lot of trouble making those transitions, even when they get me on to bigger and better things….. The big forks in the road….those are scary.  It’s gonna be a good month, I just know it.

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Getting Old Blows

Of course, the option to getting old is a bummer too.

Been fighting insomnia again.  Shoulder pain pretty consistently wakes me up around 3 am.  Once ya get it a weird sleep cycle, it is hard to break. I lay in bed, overwhelmed by all the things that I’d like to be doing.  So I get up, do a few chores functioning like a zombie.

Thank God for my yoga practice. I might be a zombie now, but after I finish my thrash on writing this and send it to cyberspace, I’m gonna do me a little Yin.  Mid-morning I will  take a hot yoga class.  I’ll rally and I’ll have a great day.  Hopefully I will officially clinch a PTA position today. We’re in negotiations right now. I really want this job and the wait is rather interminable.

I’ve embarked on furthering my Yin practice/teaching.  I am largely self-taught as a Yin teacher.  My formal training is in Raja-style yoga, which is quite athletic and decidedly Yang.  I taught a Yin sequence back in my Ashram days that is heavily influenced by Brian Kest’s take on Yin Yoga.  I’ve read books by Bernie Clark and Paul Grilley which have further deepened my understanding of Yin.

I find learning from Bernie in video forum is far deeper than reading a book.  He possesses great wisdom and humor.  His suggestions on props and pose modifications are fantastic.  I love to stretch,  But being quite bendy I have to go pretty deep in most poses in order to feel the target stresses.  So it is super important that I learn to modify for a given student.  I want to be the best freaking Yin teacher that I can be!

Bernie also holds poses incredibly long.  I have my students hold most poses for a minute or so. A few for 3-5 minutes.  But Bernie holds for about 5 min and the experience becomes extremely intense.  I want to scream sometimes.  One must also release fro a pose extremely slowly to let tissues safely rebound.  Time is far more important than depth. The wisdom Bernie is imparting has already affected my own teaching style and I’m sure this will continue to be the case.

With that being said, I’m gonna do me some studying!

P.S.  Harlan and I continue to play with duo yoga and boy is it fun. 🙂 I am enormously grateful that we are starting to geek out and have a lot of fun

We’ve been looking at more pictures of basic duo poses.  Geeking out a bit, actually.  It is a lot of fun.

 

Teaching Yin at Vivify today at 4 pm!

I am so stoked. Today WordPress is letting me insert pictures.  I’ve been having issues with photos in general on my laptop, so a Trip to the Apple Store is in my future.

Anyhoo, I have been filling my life with as much yoga as I can whilst looking for a job.  I need to ramp up my desire secure a new job . It’s just so fun to attend to errands and projects that have been back burner-ed for a long while.  But it is also nice to eat and have a roof over your head.  So I need to get serious.

 

 

 

Trust Issues

My husband and I have started to mess around with duo yoga. I think we will pull off some cool stuff.  I am really happy.  I am also a total chicken, so this will encourage me to get over it!  I would post a more recent shot – but WordPress is not letting me post my recent downloads.  Grrrrr!

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There are a lot of things I’d like to discourse.  I continue to procrastinate Churching Up my blog. I want to make it so much more, but I’m getting distracted with home nesting and spring cleaning right now I guess.  And my left eye still “wears out” during the day.  Naps are time consuming 🙂 Oh, and I’m getting to do a whole lot more asana.  Perhaps I should start balancing out my 8-limbed path.  🙂

Anyways.  my belated post…… Go Ladies!!!

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On The Road Again

I am elated to say that I have been cleared by the optometrist to resume driving and inverting in yoga.  I’m almost equally glad about the two!  It was a super pain in ass and annoying to not drive since I live in the sticks.  And I couldn’t participate in a huge portion of poses when teaching and taking class.

So I am back on the road.  I found that it actually tired me out to do some errands after a kick ass yoga class.  I believe it it because it was definitely the most active day I’ve had in a month.  I ended up taking a super long nap in the afternoon. Or maybe it’s just getting old!

Some pix from the lovely Vivify studio.. It was a super challenging and fun class, but I realized that I have lost a LOT of strength in the past month of having to take it super easy…..So I have my work cut out for myself. The good things is that while I start to do my work search, I will have some time to get on my mat, hopefully on a daily basis!

 

It was CRAZY to see my depth perception tests from one month ago and two days ago.  Black means you can’t detect anything in that field.  Doc was really encouraged that my vision had improved as much as it had in a month.  Optic neuritis typically takes a long time to resolve, and the extent to which it does can be limited.  My fast recovery is a good indicator that I won’t have much permanent damage. My left eye vision is still pretty blurry.  Electronics screens are really difficult to read.  So I certainly hope for more

I miss inversions

I miss driving too.

Follow-up with my optometrist on Tuesday. Eager.  But what if he doesn’t think that my vision has improved enough to drive? I know it is getting better but also know that I read for shit with my left eye alone.  My overall left field of vision remains in general dimmer than the right, but I can make out a lot of details and peripheral vision is back online

A month of not driving has been hard. A month of fretting about my vision overall has been stressful.  One of my best stress relievers is my yoga mat, but I am really limitied in the poses that I can do without risk of increasing my ocular pressure which can interfere with the healing in optic neuritis.

I know I still have a charmed life. I have no idea the suffering others endure. And someday, no matter what, I won’t be driving.  But right now, having a bit of a pity party, even though I know I shouldn’t.  The heart does what it wants, right?  Despite what hte brain tells it.

Namaste and Blessings, T.

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