I’m in love with my car

(To quote Queen)

 

 

I’ve always formed a special relationship with my cars.  Except the Tercel, I was stupid enough to buy a car with no A/C.  But every other car I’ve had was pretty awesome.  I’m currently driving a VW GTI. Her name’s Silver Sparkles (or Sparks for short).

I have been remiss in writing in my blog of late.  Mostly it is just that I am really busy.  Writer’s Block is to blame as well.  It’s cathartic to send thoughts into cyberspace. But I wish my blog was much substantive. I’ve resolved to quit WordPress if I don’t get back to using it . It’s money down the sink.

My physical yoga practice is suffering a lot currently.  I teach 3 classes now, which I love dearly.  But I took a class a few days ago and couldn’t recall when I had personally taken a class.  It was a great class.  I know I need to take a class on the regular.  One’s yoga teaching becomes stale if one has no personal practice.  So I’ve got to figure this out. I feel so much better emotionally and physically.

My teaching style is baffling me these days. Becoming a PTA, becoming intrigued with Fascia and Yin Yoga. Listening to J.Brown Yoga talks as well (this Podcast is the best). But I’ve realized there are so many things I’ve said and done in my classes over the years.  I wish I could go back in time and edit them!

So I’m in a weird transition of sorts as I sort out all the new information I’ve been taking in.  I love working in an Outpatient Orthopedic PT clinic. I have worked with some really cool people and to watch their transformation as they recover.  It’s awesome.  It is as rewarding as witnessing my students transform.  I have so much to learn about Physical Therapy and my 8-limbed tree.  How to un-baffle? How to become great at both my careers?IMG_8832

Can’t wait to teach my 9:30/12:30 classes today.  On that note, it has been fun to send off a missive.

Spring on the Way!

Yesterday I took my first photos with the Sandia range backdrop in forever.  The Range is incredibly beautiful and inspiring.  It has been so f-ing cold I haven’t wanted to practice  asana out there!

“Heading to work.”

I guess it is not just being cold outside.  My practice is rather rusty. I love my job but at the end of the day I’m pooped!

I need to get on my mat far more than the time I’m currently devoting to it .  My asana is energizing.  I *know* I pep up and have increased clarity when I commit to it.  I hope with the return of spring that I will feel compelled to routinely practice.

 

 

Can’t distill it.

So many ideas to mull.  Sending thoughts to cyberspace is fun and sometimes pretty cathartic.  But I want to go much deeper with my blog.  So I have a lot to  alter/update/share and meld.  But I’ve got writer’s block and very little time to even process all the wonderful stuff manifesting in my life right now.
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The fire that destroyed my beloved Ashram this week weighs heavily on my heart.  The Ashram meant so much to me when I lived in Kirkland WA.  More than a 1000 classes taken, and many as an instructor there….I loved my Ashram Family so much.  Becoming a certified instructor there forever changed me.  I found my bestie there.  🙂  And that is tip of the iceberg on my feelings this tragic event have unlocked.  I hope that in short order I will create a montage of my Ashram days.

I am so glad that Gary and Claudia have their Bellevue studio while they regroup and build a new Eastside space.  Destruction of the studio has weighed heavily on my mind.

So I leave it there, although I wish I could sit here for awhile and contemplate my life at Vivify, my new job at ATI Physical Therapy, and the J.Brown yoga podcast revelations.  But I must get going. It is time  to don my PTA hat.

Have a great day Cyberspace

-T

 

 

 

 

 

 

I quit my job and while I’m glad….

I have worked in an assisted living and home healthcare service for the past two months. I have met some incredible people.  But I am not of the cloth that can be in such settings.  The poverty is downright depressing and sad.  I sure hope I never end up in a dementia ward!!!  The facilities are nice.  My co-workers were super.  I didn’t get to know them well because I was “out in the field”.  I wish them all the best.  But man, that work is rough.

I am meant to get back into my fascination of the myofascia.  Inspired by the thought of working in outpatient again. I want to learn a whole lot more about soft tissue massage/trigger points/sneaking in a little yoga bug into the clients when I can.

Life smiled upon me.  I will start in a month at such a clinic, starting in a month.  My  2 week notice offer  has been turned down, so for glorious month I am unemployed.  Kind of a swirl of my reality.  The big changes in the course of life contain major forks in the road.  I have a lot of trouble making those transitions, even when they get me on to bigger and better things….. The big forks in the road….those are scary.  It’s gonna be a good month, I just know it.

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Getting Old Blows

Of course, the option to getting old is a bummer too.

Been fighting insomnia again.  Shoulder pain pretty consistently wakes me up around 3 am.  Once ya get it a weird sleep cycle, it is hard to break. I lay in bed, overwhelmed by all the things that I’d like to be doing.  So I get up, do a few chores functioning like a zombie.

Thank God for my yoga practice. I might be a zombie now, but after I finish my thrash on writing this and send it to cyberspace, I’m gonna do me a little Yin.  Mid-morning I will  take a hot yoga class.  I’ll rally and I’ll have a great day.  Hopefully I will officially clinch a PTA position today. We’re in negotiations right now. I really want this job and the wait is rather interminable.

I’ve embarked on furthering my Yin practice/teaching.  I am largely self-taught as a Yin teacher.  My formal training is in Raja-style yoga, which is quite athletic and decidedly Yang.  I taught a Yin sequence back in my Ashram days that is heavily influenced by Brian Kest’s take on Yin Yoga.  I’ve read books by Bernie Clark and Paul Grilley which have further deepened my understanding of Yin.

I find learning from Bernie in video forum is far deeper than reading a book.  He possesses great wisdom and humor.  His suggestions on props and pose modifications are fantastic.  I love to stretch,  But being quite bendy I have to go pretty deep in most poses in order to feel the target stresses.  So it is super important that I learn to modify for a given student.  I want to be the best freaking Yin teacher that I can be!

Bernie also holds poses incredibly long.  I have my students hold most poses for a minute or so. A few for 3-5 minutes.  But Bernie holds for about 5 min and the experience becomes extremely intense.  I want to scream sometimes.  One must also release fro a pose extremely slowly to let tissues safely rebound.  Time is far more important than depth. The wisdom Bernie is imparting has already affected my own teaching style and I’m sure this will continue to be the case.

With that being said, I’m gonna do me some studying!

P.S.  Harlan and I continue to play with duo yoga and boy is it fun. 🙂 I am enormously grateful that we are starting to geek out and have a lot of fun

We’ve been looking at more pictures of basic duo poses.  Geeking out a bit, actually.  It is a lot of fun.

 

Baby Steps

Harlan and I are learning to better fly into basic duo partner postures and it is so fun!  I find myself checking out IG for ideas and goals. Will definitely be practicing before and/or after Lisa’s class today at vivifynm.com.

These are from our driveway. I usually shoot in front of our amazing view of the Sandia Mountain Range, but there is enough of an incline and it was breezy that day.  So my base wasn’t into that idea.  Kinda have to roll with what the base says when playing duo yoga.  🙂

learning to fly driveway

Totally struggling these days with attending to home management issues.  Need a plumber, need a handyman (we are not handy), never-ending dog duties (our Basenjis are amazingly spoiled.)

Our Minions are totally worth complying with their numerous expectations . However, walking them can be a total drag. Walking 3 Basenjis in jackrabbit country currently in windy season is not a cake walk.  The winds kick up sand and blow the tumbleweeds and grasses.  My sight hounds become quite naughty.  Pulling hard, extra tangles in their 3 leashes.  Argh!  Romeo, my very special doggie, has been his usual fun dog to walk with.  Lucien was just terrible yesterday.  It is good that he is so cute and I must remember that he is still very much a puppy in his brain.

I so wish I could spend more time on this blog.  To make it more informative/interesting first and foremost, and not just limited to my yoga photography. I am an ardent yogini, but I am also a fledgling Physical Therapist Assistant.

I am self-diagnosing myself with Blogging Block. I hope that it ends soon!

Namaste, Have a great Tuesday.

-T

 

More on Trust Issues

I have been having so much fun messing around with Duo Yoga with my husband.  We have only just begun – and it would be a lot easier on my base if I would just have faith and relax.  We’ve still got to get smooth on a basic fly, but why not shoot for the stars and trying something else to dream about?

I share this knowing that we will be doing this pose again and pretty sure it will be a lot smoother.  This is one of the reasons I love my yoga photography.  Seeing what’s going on from the sidelines offers much to learn.  Stills are great – but can impart a false sense that I know what I am doing. I think that this proves otherwise.

One thing is clear – I gotta learn to trust in my base.  He is a whole lot steadier than I, in so many ways.  I hope I don’t crush his skull .

Potential end of Writer’s Block?

I *really* want to rearrange my blog.  I want to share my yoga pictures but i also want to provide a format for general info about yoga.  And Basenjis.  And New Mexico.  But I find that overwhelming, so I tend to just share pictures about what I’m up to and thinking about. Admittedly rather superficial!  Hopefully now that I can look at computer screens for more than a few minutes I will start to chip away and “church it up”, so to speak.

Five weeks of eye b.s. has pretty much up-ended my life.  It was simply terrifying to consider permanent loss of my vision.  It was really head-trippy to witness what I could see, it was like being on a hallucinogen without it wearing off…. It was very relieving when my vision started to improve….  But finding myself suddenly unemployed has definitely stung.  I understand, I really do, but holy heck it stings.  They couldn’t wait for me to come back to work when I had no idea when/whether  I could do so.  I’m relieved  that a few days ago I retrieved my state license, my belongings, turned in my key, and hugged many of my beloved co-workers.  Chapter officially closed.  Time to move on.  Glad I didn’t cry because Harlan accompanied me and he is my anchor..  After saying my good-byes we went and saw The Black Panther (big time recommendation). Great diversion.  The characters were all so bad-ass.

My vision is still fucked up in my left eye, but each day brings some improvement,.  It’s frustrating that my gains now are not nearly as marked as previous weeks.  Scares me but the eye doc assured me that it was going to be a long recuperation which might not be fully complete.  Thankfully I have been given the go-ahead to drive, work, and do my headstands.  Life is good.!

In retrospect, the Santa Fe job wasn’t the best fit anyways.  i really enjoyed my co-workers but the commute was simply an emotional drain.  No time for self-care at the end or the beginning of the day for the entire work week.  I love caring for others but we do need to find time for self-care.  I didn’t have the time to hydrate, eat, nor even go to the bathroom during my shifts.  That rather sucked. I’ not super surprised I had 2 UTIs and optic neuritis during my SF stint  The Gods Spoke that it wasn’t gonna happen and I’ve no choice but to move on

Ideally my new job will welcome my belief of appropriate yoga exercises coupled with therapeutic exercises personally designed for a given patient’s functional goals and always within their specific plan of care.  I don’t personally believe in modalities and I know I’m not alone.  I also yearn for a situation where I could continue to teach yoga with clients interested in doing so post PT discharge, with knowledge of any limitations they may still have.   I couldn’t do that in SF, since i don’t teach there.  But in RR/ABQ I could certainly offer such services.

In the interim, I know I need to take advantage of the extra time I have to get on my yoga mat.  I’ve definitely done more, but I really want to make it a daily event while I can.  I am sub teaching his morning, which is always my best motivation to go.  🙂

So here are a few pictures of Harlan and I dabbling in some Partner Yoga. super glad that we’ve started to practice together.  I’ll mull how to church the site up, but I first need to focus on getting my day underway and to walk my minions before I’m off to teach! And a few pictures of my Basenji Pile.

 

 

 

On The Road Again

I am elated to say that I have been cleared by the optometrist to resume driving and inverting in yoga.  I’m almost equally glad about the two!  It was a super pain in ass and annoying to not drive since I live in the sticks.  And I couldn’t participate in a huge portion of poses when teaching and taking class.

So I am back on the road.  I found that it actually tired me out to do some errands after a kick ass yoga class.  I believe it it because it was definitely the most active day I’ve had in a month.  I ended up taking a super long nap in the afternoon. Or maybe it’s just getting old!

Some pix from the lovely Vivify studio.. It was a super challenging and fun class, but I realized that I have lost a LOT of strength in the past month of having to take it super easy…..So I have my work cut out for myself. The good things is that while I start to do my work search, I will have some time to get on my mat, hopefully on a daily basis!

 

It was CRAZY to see my depth perception tests from one month ago and two days ago.  Black means you can’t detect anything in that field.  Doc was really encouraged that my vision had improved as much as it had in a month.  Optic neuritis typically takes a long time to resolve, and the extent to which it does can be limited.  My fast recovery is a good indicator that I won’t have much permanent damage. My left eye vision is still pretty blurry.  Electronics screens are really difficult to read.  So I certainly hope for more

I miss inversions

I miss driving too.

Follow-up with my optometrist on Tuesday. Eager.  But what if he doesn’t think that my vision has improved enough to drive? I know it is getting better but also know that I read for shit with my left eye alone.  My overall left field of vision remains in general dimmer than the right, but I can make out a lot of details and peripheral vision is back online

A month of not driving has been hard. A month of fretting about my vision overall has been stressful.  One of my best stress relievers is my yoga mat, but I am really limitied in the poses that I can do without risk of increasing my ocular pressure which can interfere with the healing in optic neuritis.

I know I still have a charmed life. I have no idea the suffering others endure. And someday, no matter what, I won’t be driving.  But right now, having a bit of a pity party, even though I know I shouldn’t.  The heart does what it wants, right?  Despite what hte brain tells it.

Namaste and Blessings, T.

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