Upon the “Anniversary” of my Father’s Death

I can’t not cry watching the opening scene of Guardian’s of the Galaxy. We watched it last night for the billionth time.  I love GOG so much.  There is some solace, and the movie is so fucking awesome.

I relate to ever so much.  The things that I wish I would have said.  But hey, I was 12.  So I really should forgive myself.

I hate May 8th.  Words cannot express how I love and miss my Dad.  This year I attended a class on Yoga and Therapeutic Rehabilitation.  It was a really good day, I learned a lot. I am glad that I was able to distract myself all day with a topic I find interesting and exciting.

On that note, I am going to watch GOG2 for the 2nd time. I really liked it the first time I saw it.

Love to Cyberspace and my beloveds extra Love.

Give you love ones a hug!  🙂

 

Duo Yoga. So much fun!

I have been so f-ing busy that I haven’t blogged in a long time.

Things are in general going quite well, but a new job, however cool it may be, is still time consuming and ego-breaking.  I hate having to ask a bazillion questions. The documentation software that ATI uses is actually quite robust, but it is really hard for this somewhat old dog to learn new tricks.  But I will succeed!

Speaking of learning anew, Harlan and I can now resume our delving into duo yoga. We had to go on hiatus for a few months since he broke a rib.  WE WERE NOT PRACTICING DUO WHEN HE FRACTURED HIS RIB, JUST AN UNFORTUNATE FALL 🙁  

So watch out world!  This stuff is way too fun.  Trust is required 🙂

So Happy Monday All. Love and Light into Cyberspace .

🙂

-T

Yin is In

I teach Yin Yoga at Vivify NM Yoga http://vivifynm.com

My training is primarily via teachers from afar (they don’t know that, but they are)

Erich Schiffmann.  He isn’t Yin per se, but I guess that is why I choose him first.  His style is Freedom Style, and I apply that to my approach to teaching, not just Yin but Yang. 

Bernie Clark is my primary “classic” if you will Yin teacher from afar.

There are tons of links that I will get around to adding here (or will I?)

My Yin-style is not traditional. There is no right Yin Way.   

I hold poses circa 2 min (with an occasional 5-10 min). I give out more anatomy snippets and biology bits than you might expect from a Trad YinSter. With my disparate training, I seek to blend  Yoga Instruction,  Anatomy, Biology, and Physical Therapy into what I guess is a ” Yoga Therapy”.

There are many of lovely blogs and podcasts I’m stumbling upon.  Look out there for Josh Summers and J.Brown 

Basenjis

Walking 3 Basenjis in jackrabbit country currently in windy season is not a cake walk.  The winds kick up sand and blow the tumbleweeds and grasses.  My sight hounds become quite naughty.  Pulling hard, extra tangles in their 3 leashes.  Argh!  Romeo, my very special doggie, has been his usual fun dog to walk with.  Lucien was just terrible yesterday.  It is good that he is so cute and I must remember that he is still very much a puppy in his brain.

More on Trust Issues

I have been having so much fun messing around with Duo Yoga with my husband.  We have only just begun – and it would be a lot easier on my base if I would just have faith and relax.  We’ve still got to get smooth on a basic fly, but why not shoot for the stars and trying something else to dream about?

I share this knowing that we will be doing this pose again and pretty sure it will be a lot smoother.  This is one of the reasons I love my yoga photography.  Seeing what’s going on from the sidelines offers much to learn.  Stills are great – but can impart a false sense that I know what I am doing. I think that this proves otherwise.

One thing is clear – I gotta learn to trust in my base.  He is a whole lot steadier than I, in so many ways.  I hope I don’t crush his skull .

It’s raining in Rio Rancho. Thank you Universe!

OMG we are getting precipitation here in the High Desert. It will make for a very messy walk with the Basenjis this morning, but boy do we need precipitation.  Yes!!!!

I had the unexpected surprise of sub teaching a couple of yoga classes this week. Hooray!!!!

It totally sucks that I lost my PTA job and income recently due to forces beyond my control.  But a definite sliver of the silver lining is I’m getting on my mat a whole lot more than I was while working in Santa Fe. I’m going to grab every chance I get to teach or take class while I figure out what I’m going to do with my life now.

I am incredibly grateful to be getting back on my mat.  My practice has always help me withstand the rollercoaster of life.

I feel like a broken record talking about this.  I’ll try and keep it short. I’ll try to figure out a way to stop even telling the tale.  I have faith that soon it will fall into the category of blip on the life map of bullshit.  I continue to recognize how good my life is.  Charmed really.

Anyways,

My life was pretty much up-ended last month when my left eye’s vision unexpectedly tanked within a 3 day span.  I honestly feared I was going blind with no warning.  Terrifying and truly life altering.  MRIs/Emergency Room/3 eye doc visits later….. all data consistent with optic neuritis of viral or idiopathic nature.  Not multiple sclerosis, which I now know to be a common cause of this condition. So I’m exceedingly grateful it isn’t MS.

I’m elated that my vision has improved quite a bit after that first wretched week.  My left eye vision still sucks – like I can’t read what I’m typing at all with my left eye.  There really isn’t a treatment for this illness, it is a lengthy “wait and see” what amount of vision that I will regain.   I must accept I will likely suffer some permanent vision loss so that still is scary. I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t have doctor blessing to drive. I feel so fucking dependent to go places.  My husband has been a rock-star in terms of taking me places as well as keeping my spirits up.

I grudgingly thank the Universe for forcing me out of a toxic work situation in Santa Fe.  It is a fine clinic, and I sure wanted to remain there for a few years.  I knew I couldn’t sustain it for 10 years, but I sure wanted to work there for a few years. But The Universe recognized that it was still a toxic situation for me – mainly the f-ing rough daily commute.  The Force decided for me that it was simply no longer an option. It’s been a really good change for my home-life to be sure.  Tip of the Positive Iceberg Hit.  I still feel horrid that I had to stop working with no warning at all. I know my co-workers really had to scramble since I couldn’t be there.  I’m glad that they found someone to replace me and therefore to know I should let go of the guilt.  I’m still processing this all honestly.  Harlan and I are journeying up to SF later today to turn in my keys and grab things I’ve brought to the clinic.  Glad he will be there to buffer my emotions whilst being there.

It is time to stop discussing my vision loss scare.  I will scream to cyberspace glee when I’m allowed to drive and when I find a cool PTA job.  But no more re-telling/re-visitng my sob story.  Things are going to work out.

We’re finding time to do a lot of stuff around the house since I’m rather homebound. Another silver lining.  New office furniture and 2 bookshelves for my little yoga studio now tucked in a closet.  I am stowing things nearby but out of sight so I can practice in a serene space. I am a double Virgo and messiness really drives me crazy.

I also think that my relationships have truly improved now that I have more time and energy to give.  So that is pretty cool.

It totally stinks to not have a decent income!  I sure hope that I will quickly score a great outpatient orthopedic position that is geographically far more desirable.  I would LOVE to be able to incorporate a whole lot more of yoga instruction into how I treat patients and students.   Focusing on the proper dynamics of a given PT  exercise such as straight leg raises has been incredibly instructional and I’m glad I have been imparted with that knowledge.  Now I yearn for a situation where I can blend such an exercise into a functional activity based on the needs of a particular client.  1:1 instruction is awesome.  But I would prefer to focus on Therapeutic Exercise with a whole lot less emphasis on singular exercises and the use of modalities such as ultrasound.  It is undeniably debatable whether modalities are beneficial in Physical Therapy.  I truly believe in my heart I’m meant to treat patients with yoga versus electricity.  Just saying.

Again changing the subject.  Here are some pictures taken yesterday at Vivify. I thought yoga pants with full of roses would be perfect for a Valentine’s Day Yoga class.  The anatomical interpretation of our lower extremities is more than debatable, but I still love these pants.

I haven’t been inspired to do much photography during my illness. Until this week I was supposed to keep activity to a minimum. But now I’m cleared to get sweaty and work my body.  Hooray!  I am sure I’ll be getting back to pictures as well.

Hasta la vista baby, it is time for me to ROCK and ROLL for the day.  Dropping off my keys and saying goodbye to people at TS is going to be difficult! But that will close a chapter and who know what now lies ahead!!!

 

 

 

Time Sure Flies.

Happy 2018 All.  I send the most warmest of wishes to cyberspace to my family, friends, other earthlings, and out to the Cosmos.  Wow!  2018….

I am inspired to get going on the Bucket List (and to clean my house) as time is clearly marching on at a rapid pace.

I have had such a lovely long weekend.  Filled with quality time with my family, friends, and some **much** needed time on my yoga mat.  I love my job as a Physical Therapist Assistant, but it bites into my Yoga Mode and all that that entails. I yearn to find a balance between my two worlds and be the best teacher/educator/clinician that I can be.  I know this is possible, it just takes time and a willingness to work hard for my dreams to manifest.  A cherry on the top of this dream sundae would be financially independence.

I plan to sit down and work on my 2018 Bucket List, and maybe to share it once I’ve given in some deep thought.  But I also want to attack my closet for awhile, because I know many treasures lie within its confines.  I’ve been threatening to do this for some time.  I’ve been in purge mode for a few days now and I don’t want to lose my momentum!

But I’ve got some pictures I just have to share from Vivify this weekend.  My husband and I have started practicing together, and I am ever so pleased!  Baby steps have been made in duo yoga and I have high hopes for what we will learn as we develop trust and have fun with it.  And I’ll have to stop being a chicken 🙂 🙂 🙂

Namaste

And maybe, just maybe, I’ll take on my fears of Blitz the Monster….. This could the the Year of Adrenaline and Adventure!!!

Merry X-mas All!!!!

We had the most lovely couple of days in Santa Fe.  I tried to post the pictures but the casita we stayed at offered internet that moved at glacial speed.  So here are the pictures.

If you look really close – I’m asana-ing under this charming purple tree – which was particularly striking when lit up at night.

We strolled the Plaza, which has absolutely incredible shops.  I did score on a purchase of a belt of epic sparkly-ness for 50$.  I just *Had* to have it and *MUST WEAR*.  And marveled at this Church. I even had to peek in.  The cathedral was amazing but I did not dare take a photo as the kiddos were preparing for their traditional Nativity Scene.  Adorable kiddos.

We also snuck up to a frightening dragon ( 🙂  ). It was really neat.  People come up with the most fantastic pieces.

We will definitely explore this very unique town that is not that far away from Rio Rancho.  Sure wish it was a heck of a lot closer however.  The commute of an hour does get cumbersome.  It is an hour – so 2 hr of my day is spent on I-25. Not so sure about doing said commute and feel I should contemplate convenient options,,,,,,Which is a bummer as I love working at Therapy Solutions.

I am super bummed that I’ve put on some weight again.  My commute is chewing up all my free time – and I’ve getting on my mat not nearly enough.  I’m on my feet all day, which I like in a job but it isn’t an aerobic.  I know a healthier lifestyle would get me back ship shape.

Namaste

Holiday Preps

I have done very few.  My kiddos were always the inspiration to decorate (hell, Naomi was 100% in charge of the tree).  No kiddos coming to visit, so minimal decorations.  I’d love to have a big tree, but Lucien (Moose) would manage to topple it and eat every ornament on it in the blink of an eye.  We’ve gotten a couple of cute little trees embedded with LED lights that are sufficing quite nicely.

I miss blogging.  Procrastination; I really want to overhaul this site, sexy it up. Darn job that sucks my energy dry! (actually I am A.O.K. with my job.  It just takes up a lot of time!!!  But I would love to start focusing on Fusion of Yoga with Physical Therapy.  I need to get a whole lot more educated on how to effectively do so first! 🙂

I also miss getting on my mat on the reg.  I would probably just not practice asana at all these days if not for my classes.  At least I ever so now and then HAVE to take a few photos but I sure wish I’d get back into a semblance of a daily routine on my mat.